April 16, 2014

Reminiscing + Tribal Duds

Once the thunderstorms rolled through yesterday, we took a trip to my grandpa's house. He lives about 30 minutes away from us and unfortunately we don't get to see him as much as I'd like. His house is nestled on an acre of land that overlooks a lake. So many sweet memories have been made over the years. When I was younger, I'd spend a few weeks each summer visiting with him and my grandma. It's just my grandpa now (my grandma passed away about 8 years ago). I really enjoy reminiscing and listening to the stories he has to share, even if I've heard them all before. They seem to get better each time they're told.

After we had spent some time catching up, we all took a walk down to the lake. While we were wondering around, I asked G to take a few pictures to show my pretty new tribal kimono. I snagged it at Ross on Monday afternoon for a whopping $10, so I couldn't not share it with y'all. It's a little big, but so comfy. Sadly, I only ended up liking one of the photos that he took (boo).

kimono • Ross | tank • Wet Seal | jeans • Target | shoes • Amazon | necklace made by my mama

I still find it a bit awkward posing for the camera (unless I'm taking a selfie, of course) haha.

April 15, 2014

Chatting Over Coffee

If we were meeting up for coffee, we'd pick a quiet table in the corner of a busy coffee shop. I'd probably take out my phone to snap a shot of my hazelnut latte before taking a sip. I'd then slip it back into my purse for the remainder of our time together. I would ask you how you've been. Once you're finished updating me in on the current events of your life, I'd start to share mine.

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that I've been in the process of finding a new church. I've been praying and I feel led to try one in particular, but I'm not sure when I'll have a chance to go because of work.

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that I think I'll always have a love/hate relationship with working at Target. My coworkers and supervisors are great, but the customers can be very difficult at times.

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that I can't seem to shake this baby fever this time around and I often find myself daydreaming about being a mama. Then I would chuckle a bit, shake my head and quickly change the subject.

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that it's hard for me to believe that G and I have been married for almost 4 years already. I'd then throw out the old (and rather cliché) "time flies" line and we'd both nod our heads in agreement.

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that I'm excited about visiting St. Augustine for our anniversary in a few weeks. I'd fill you in on all the places I want to hit up and things I want to do while we're there. Like trying waffles from Cousteau's Waffle and Milkshake Bar or climbing to the top of the lighthouse without chickening out (since I'm afraid of heights).

If we were chatting over coffee, I'd tell you that I'm at a really good place in my life right now. Everything seems to be going smoothly (with the occasional hiccup here and there). For the most part, I am content and I'm enjoying the season that I'm in.

April 14, 2014

Snap 365 | Week 15

098/365 — Honeydew cilantro candle (weird combo, but it smells great).

099/365 — I knew The Book Thief would be sad, but dang! Tears were definitely shed.

100/365 — As soon as I settled down with my coffee, Sammie was ready to get his snuggle on.

101/365 — One of the perks of working at Target? Discounted vanilla macchiatos after work.

101/365 — Saturday was my brother's birthday! Still hard to believe he's 43. Woof.

102/365 — A random shot while driving through Y-bor City. It's the best I could do.

103/365 — Found a way to put this key rack to good use (as a necklace holder in our bedroom).

April 10, 2014

I've Only Skimmed the Surface

It's a beautiful spring morning here in the sunshine state. The trees are gently swaying to the melody of bird ballads as I sit, sipping my hazelnut coffee. It's the perfect time for a bit of reflection. I've been thinking about my writing, probably more than I should. But, sometimes I feel pressured to get this whole blogging thing right. As if expressing myself through words on a screen can somehow go wrong. It sounds a little silly now that I've admitted to feeling like this.

More so than not, I stray away from sharing things in fear that it won't be interesting enough or that people will misinterpret what I'm trying to get at. But isn't that the whole point of writing, of sharing? To put ourselves out there, to be transparent, without stopping to consider how people may react. I guess it's something we all deal with, or have dealt with at some point.

Growing up, I was constantly writing. Be it in the journals that I kept locked away from prying eyes, or here, online. This certainly isn't my first rodeo when it comes to blogging. Throughout middle school and high school I used LiveJournal and MySpace as places of escape. I would write about anything and everything. Never once did I stop to think "I wonder if I should share this". Nope, I simply allowed my thoughts to flow freely and those were some of the best posts that I had ever written.

Now that I've gotten older, I've become more self-conscious about the way people will perceive me and what I choose to share. In the (almost) 2 years I've had this blog, I've failed to share so much with all of you. Instead of diving in head first, I've only skimmed the surface. Instead of going deeper, I've remained shallow and vague. I find myself contemplating shutting this page down altogether sometimes, but I don't want to give up that easily. I don't want to throw it all away.

I want to feel the same freedom I felt years ago. I want to be able to share about whatever is going through my mind. I want to open up again without caring about what people will think once they've finished reading. I just want to write, plain and simple.